i met my younger self for coffee

 

i met my younger self for coffee today

it's almost our birthday

she's turning 20

i'm turning 38

she was late, as usual

i was early

she has long hair

mine's short

i had white top and trousers on

she wore tube top and denim skirt 

i'm wearing glasses

she's wearing braces

i looked at her as she walks towards me

she's so skinny

from afar she looks pretty fine

just her usual kikay self

strong, independent, perky

but if you'll look closely into her eyes

you'll see how unhappy she has been

she's moving on from someone she's never been with

she puts her dream in the backseat cause she needs to provide for our sisters

left her first job cause it got her sick

she's a nomad

she's worried, restless and exhausted

she's carrying the weight of the world in her shoulders

doing it all alone

no one to depend on but herself

i wanted to give her a tight hug but i didn't

so i just said hi, you look great

you look just exactly like me, except you gained a little weight she replied

so typical of her

beating herself up

i wanted to tell her we're at peace with ourselves now

but i just brushed it off

we had our caramel frappe and cheesecake

while we catch up

she asked a lot of questions but

i didn't want to spoil her of what's ahead for her 

i just told her that life won't be easy but

assured her too that it won't always be like this  

that we are going to be fine

that i am proud of her

that i won't be the woman i am now without her

that i am making our dreams come true

and that we are at our happiest now

we are being loved, living the life we always wanted

we now have a place we can call our home

we left the coffee shop and as i watched her go

i know she felt relieved

we won't meet again for 18 more years

but each day i know she'll be excited to

be the woman she'll become

inspired by a prompt from the book Deep in My Feels by @jennaececelia 😊